Sorry I've been scarce..

1/4 stick · 10-15-13, 01:27 AM

Aint been on much. Took my mom to the hospital a few weeks ago. Had some infection and needed iv antibiotics. She's better but in rehab again. I ask for your prayers for her, and thank you in advance. We kinda need her around awhile longer.

But something hit me today as I was visiting her and the physical therapist was working with her. A reality that I don't want to face. I didn't see it coming with my father. Kinda wishing I was blissfully oblivious to this now.

My mother is 84 years old. Every minute I talk to her I can tell the woman I once knew is slowly going away. When asked a question there's so often a slow pause that seems to last forever, and confusion like she's struggling to think and find her words; this from a woman that use to be so quick witted it'd make my head spin. I walk behind her and see how she struggles for just a few feet when not so long ago she'd wear my young legs out in a store. I try to fight and hide what I know. But the truth is there before my eyes. Hopefully not for awhile, but then am I being selfish to hope for that. I want the days of her out fishing us all back again. A deep, long hurt, and a lot of lonely is coming. I so wish somethings could last for ever. This and a few other things making faith hard for me to find here lately.

Just want her to see me graduate so for once in her life she can say that her baby boy who gave her pure hell, finally made her proud. Even though I know she'll never go to see me take the diploma. I just want her to be able to look at me and be proud for once.

joedog · 10-15-13, 05:19 AM

Prayers going out for a great lady!

keithdog · 10-15-13, 07:09 AM

It's so very hard to see the decline in our parents as they age and become someone other than what we have always known. Just being there for your mom is a gift you can give her now. Life seems so unfair much of the time. My parents both left this world before my young boys were old enough to remember them. That bothers me to this day because I know what my boys missed out on. But life is what it is. Just remember Donald, faith is what gets us through these tough times. My prayers will be with you my friend.

Bassin' Gal · 10-15-13, 07:22 AM

Mothers are wonderful creatures! I am sure that knowing you are back in school and doing all you can to get that education is all she needs to be extremely proud of you. Prayers going up for you and your family.

1/4 stick · 10-16-13, 01:36 AM

Thank you all. Sorry to unload like that. Just been feeling down about it and no one to really talk to about it. Don't want my family to be affected by what I'm thinking and the gf has lost a lot of family this year and is just coming out of her blues about that. I don't want to drag her back down.

Bassboss · 10-16-13, 09:51 PM

Sorry to hear about your ma, stick. Just enjoy the time you have now and make the most of it. Remember her for the great woman she was and thank the Lord when he finally calls her home.

Prayers to you and her Stick!

10-15-13, 01:27 AM	#1
1/4 stick BassFishin.Com Super Veteran Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Fayetteville, N.C. Posts: 3,529	Sorry I've been scarce.. Aint been on much. Took my mom to the hospital a few weeks ago. Had some infection and needed iv antibiotics. She's better but in rehab again. I ask for your prayers for her, and thank you in advance. We kinda need her around awhile longer. But something hit me today as I was visiting her and the physical therapist was working with her. A reality that I don't want to face. I didn't see it coming with my father. Kinda wishing I was blissfully oblivious to this now. My mother is 84 years old. Every minute I talk to her I can tell the woman I once knew is slowly going away. When asked a question there's so often a slow pause that seems to last forever, and confusion like she's struggling to think and find her words; this from a woman that use to be so quick witted it'd make my head spin. I walk behind her and see how she struggles for just a few feet when not so long ago she'd wear my young legs out in a store. I try to fight and hide what I know. But the truth is there before my eyes. Hopefully not for awhile, but then am I being selfish to hope for that. I want the days of her out fishing us all back again. A deep, long hurt, and a lot of lonely is coming. I so wish somethings could last for ever. This and a few other things making faith hard for me to find here lately. Just want her to see me graduate so for once in her life she can say that her baby boy who gave her pure hell, finally made her proud. Even though I know she'll never go to see me take the diploma. I just want her to be able to look at me and be proud for once. __________________ Just a redneck having fun. https://www.youtube.com/user/donaldvlogsify Last edited by 1/4 stick; 10-15-13 at 01:36 AM.

10-15-13, 05:19 AM	#2
joedog BassFishin.Com Super Veteran Join Date: Jun 2011 Location: JANESVILLE,WI. 53545 Posts: 3,415	Prayers going out for a great lady! __________________ "Fishing isn't life or death... it's more important than that."

10-15-13, 07:09 AM	#3
keithdog BassFishin.Com Premier Elite Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: IN Posts: 8,308	It's so very hard to see the decline in our parents as they age and become someone other than what we have always known. Just being there for your mom is a gift you can give her now. Life seems so unfair much of the time. My parents both left this world before my young boys were old enough to remember them. That bothers me to this day because I know what my boys missed out on. But life is what it is. Just remember Donald, faith is what gets us through these tough times. My prayers will be with you my friend. __________________ Just one more cast, and then some!

10-16-13, 01:36 AM	#5
1/4 stick BassFishin.Com Super Veteran Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Fayetteville, N.C. Posts: 3,529	Thank you all. Sorry to unload like that. Just been feeling down about it and no one to really talk to about it. Don't want my family to be affected by what I'm thinking and the gf has lost a lot of family this year and is just coming out of her blues about that. I don't want to drag her back down. __________________ Just a redneck having fun. https://www.youtube.com/user/donaldvlogsify

10-16-13, 09:51 PM	#6
Bassboss BassFishin.Com Premier Elite Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Shawano, WI Posts: 7,761	Sorry to hear about your ma, stick. Just enjoy the time you have now and make the most of it. Remember her for the great woman she was and thank the Lord when he finally calls her home. Prayers to you and her Stick! __________________ If you can't fix it with heavy squats or fish oil, you're probably going to die.

10-15-13, 07:22 AM	#4
Bassin' Gal BassFishin.Com Active Member Join Date: May 2012 Posts: 387	Mothers are wonderful creatures! I am sure that knowing you are back in school and doing all you can to get that education is all she needs to be extremely proud of you. Prayers going up for you and your family.

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